I was sitting here tonight while breast pumping and got to thinking. I thought "how the HELL could I manage to do this alone?" I mean really, with a very fussy baby, no close friends, family 45 mins away, if I were to be a single Mom with a newborn, yes I would get thru it, but I now how a profound respect for women who are strong enough emotionally and physically to do what it sometimes takes 3 people to do for our Leah.
That being said, I never knew how much I could love a man that is so compassionate, so caring and patient with me and our screaming mimi. I am in awe every day of how I wound up with such a loving and understanding man. I have learned more about myself these past months than I have in my entire lifetime and (now that my hormones are more under control) it's nice to have him right by my side encouraging me to embrace myself and let me transition into a new self that is foriegn to me...a sweet and patient person who wants to do good in the world. Its odd, as soon as I delivered our daughter I had a sweeping sense of "mother earth" come over me...like I'd been spritzed with a nuturing mist or something. It will be interesting to see what new ideas come from that!
Anywho, here are some pics
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OMG, you are so blessed to have a beautiful little baby!! She is SO cute! I can't wait to see more pictures!
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