Our Leah is a month old today! YAY!
But that's not what I came to post about.
I do believe our child becomes possessed at night sometimes. She eats, then screams, then falls asleep for 30 secconds, then screams, then looks wide eyed and awake, then screams. I hate it. I hate that I get frustrated and angry and that I cant soothe her. I hate that I cant fucking breastfeed like every other freaking new mom. I hate that im angry right now. I hate that Jason and I are getting upset with each other in response to this all. This has been happening for a freaking month. She's had a handful of good 'normal baby' happy days. Im so fucking pissed that in less than a week I'll have to go back to work and my poor husband will have to go it alone during the day. She's a handful and I'm really worried that it will be too much to handle for him. I know he's fully capabale, but I swear anyone after an hour of her screaming will understand. I love my baby, and have no intentions of going into post partum depressionville, but im just trying to keep my emotions in check right now and its very hard when she's in the other room still crying when she's supposed to be sleeping.
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a friend of mine had a baby a few months ago. she had a tough time of it for the first couple of months also. she sounded exactly like you, right down to the not being able to breastfeed. it'll get better. it sucks, but it'll get better. i'm praying for you guys. and she is absolutely darling.
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