Today's the day!

The day my period is supposed to start!

I never realized how excited I would be to feel very tender nipples and swollen boobs...to be excited about slight nausua in the morning. To also be weary of cramps and wetness below, in fear of the possiblity...of not being pregnant.

The mind is SUCH a powerful thing. I almost want to think my way into being pregnant it seems. Its a bit frustrating to know full well that I might not be pregnant...but im going to constantly reassure myself all day long that I just may very well be.

Jason and I are going to go buy a test tonight.
And then order some more online if it shows negetive lol.

Please wish us positive thoughts!

Pregnancy Symptoms already?

Im not sure weather to be excited...or to poke my mean brain with a q-tip.

I've had hearburn (and I neeever have heartburn) all last weekI've been very tired, like zero energy. My nipples are very tender, but not my breasts. Im peeing at least 5 times a day...compared to maybe 2. And today im feeling kind of sick to my stomach...not a throw up kind of feeling...just that...yucky feeling.

Im really hoping to see a big ol + sign on the pregnancy stick next tuesday...but until then...im...just going to be in a confused hopeful state.

Wish me luck :)

First couple of steps

I thought about it a lot yesterday.

Purposely not planning for the sake of letting it happen naturally. Its kind of silly really, trying to purposly go against the grind, its almost like we're little goth kids. But at the same time, I know why we have the mindset we do.

Still, it doesnt hurt to have knowledge, and to be healthy. I decided to go and get some prenatal vitamans yesterday. I made sure it had iron and folic acid. It was kind of funny, when I checked out, I was hoping that the register lady would flash me a smile and wish me good luck or something. Odd, I know, but dammit I was excited! I also got onto whattoexpect.com and found out they have a support website too. Im a very curious person, so to learn as much as I can is not a bad thing.

When I got home, after re arranging some furniture, I asked him to help me with something. I had him open the pills for me. We just grinned at each other. Its a very small thing, but its finally a real step before us...a realization that we're really going to make a baby.

Pretty cool I say :)

Realization

Hi, I'm Abby. Nice to meet you!

I decided to make this blog because of its unique path behind the idea.

Im 24, seperated from a relationship in August, and met the man I've been waiting for all of my life a month later. 2 months later we both realize that we want children...quite badly together. We kept talking about it, long story short, here I am...willing and waiting to have a beautiful baby with the love of my life.

We are a very unique couple. We know what we want and aren't afraid of societies views about it. We are best friends. We are lovers. We are incredibly happy for and with each other and I couldn't ask for a better person to wake up to and go to sleep next to every day and night. We've been together nearly 6 months, and from the first day I knew. I knew that he's what I've been thru hell for. And the best thing is, he feels the same about me.

So we've decided to get off the pill and see what happens. We're not planning a pregnancy. We are letting nature happen, whenever she decides to give us a gift, we will gladly take it with loving arms.

Next Saturday is the day im most likely to concieve. Im buying prenatal pills today to help my body gear up for any possibilities. Im so incredibly excited about this chapter in my life...regardless of how it turns out, im glad I get to spend it with Jason.